maybe i shld just give up

so many things to hope for, so little things to expect
also, shld i transfer sch? its hard...half of me is already in gan eng seng sec...lol
i mean, why not? i use to live in tiong. i grew up there.
its complicated. life's complicated. sometimes i have nothing to look forward to.
naah, suicide is out of the question...for now

If I'm going down, at least I'll go down fighting; take some of the bastards with me.

Ahh...so it looks diffrent...where are older posts?

Actually, this is just a new blog with same url...gonna hae to set hings up again.
4 October 2009
Today, i'm a NEW person. To all Christians, out there...i got baptized today!
Today started at 10 am++, cos i stayed up late o try out Sims 3...dont ask nth abt what i did on it
had bak chang for breakfast (ironical...its mooncake festival now)
Did more revision for lit...its the only humans i can score at!
and also for geog and maths...
By about 1, stopped, wen to play Sims 3 agn! till abt 2+
had lunch...bread with cheese (my last meal)
went to ECP (Playground @ big spash) at 3+
reach at 4+
played in the sand with some church friends...kick sand, here~there
6.05...i died and was born again through water baptism
washed up, hang aroung with friends...WET my dry friends xP
had my first drink. (ice blended coffee (mocha) at the Old Coffee House)
had my first meal at Carls' Jr. , a Western ThickBurger (as big as my whole hand!)
wen home...

happyface!
OH YEAH BABY!
MY PC's FIXED!
TIME TO MASS DOWNLOAD/REINSTALL EVERYTHING I EVER HAD, LIKE I EVER HAVE!
riiiiiight...
thats going to take a while....
sadface...

like, no one comes here

i just post aimlessly. hopefully when im old and forget everything these sites may help me remember.
or not.
so if you come here TAG.
thx

DOWN WITH THE SICKNESS!

...DAMNIT, IM SICK AGN!
at least can slack at home.
but slack for too long, aso get bored
so tired!
wan play also cant play.

cant go out

im going insane
SOMEONE SHOOT ME!

cant eat
sore throat

cant breathe
cant taste
cant smell
blocked nose

SOMEONE DIED YESTERDAY!
Is this news...sad? happy?
well it all depends on who died right?
so who died?
Micheal Jackson!
The best moonwalker ever
The pedo
The...racist? (against himself?)
The King of pop
R.I.P Mr. Michael Joseph Jackson.
tag your comments...
and im not a fucking pedo. stfu.
also i dont listen to pop, just saw this as headliners on yahoo

i did sumfin wit da links...and finally chg blogsong. if you srsly CAN'T get enuff of Cao Ni Ma s check out the links

...4 hours later
my illegal download's 30.57% done according to the dumb program
lol, not illegal, just a fucking huge file.
ok maybe illegal.
but who knows? (as in if its illegal not that nobody knows.you're reading, YOU know)
the internet like that
then i might leave the pc on for...
10 hours + 16 or 20 hours!?!?
fuck thats not going to happen.
well i guess i might as well go hunting for million dollar bills on the floor
i guess thats what the "pause" option is for. thank god for download managers
so i guess i'll be off on that hunt...dreaming i hope if i get to sleep
(not likely. ive been trying for the last 4 hours)

shit...

i dont even know why i'm still awake...

lol, i just got a facebook acc just so i could go find the stupid NDP 09 pictures.

I wasted 3 hours on that. Also, i learned that there are people who's names are ndp! (the idiots)

When i finally found it i was like FUCK! I THE PICTURES ARE ON FLICKR! that meant that i didnt have to waste 3 hours looking for the dumb ndp 09 facebook group. (im fucking pissed right now)

maybe arumugam's father is alot more important than previously thought.

the commander for this year's ndp is -somthing- Subramanium. Or at least thats what we (that includes gerald) heard during anouncements.

just yesterday (saturday) i saw this hawt NCDCC chick say we (the boys brigade) looked like sailors bcuz of our caps/hats/berets/whateverthehellitscalled. lol

though pictures on flickr are protected i managed to get some off of it.

also becuz of stupid "confidentiality" rules i cant say much about the photos.(but hey, if the pictures are on the internet how confidential is it?)

im standing next to second guy from the back

does that uniform look familiar?

Credits for these pictures:http://www.flickr.com/photos/ndp09pnc/sets/

Go look at more of the NDP 09 pictures there. Now i can't be sued for not giving credits

kliek...

i kinda omg'd today when matthew 'complained' that i didnt update my blog.
OMG
well heres your post, about you.
i went to matthew's shop after tuition (damn! tuition on a holiday! but im sure everyone has too)
that was about 5
then downloaded firefox on his laptop
he COULD see and was happy with the SPEED diffrence.
ok so im just tryin to get more people to DOWNLOAD MOZILLA FIREFOX
lol sorry for that advertisment
anyway, he came over to my house and when he tried to steal my stuff, including balls
(as in ball you f'king sickos)
i HAD to give the poor thing one!
i brought my pet dog on a ball hunt, and we found one! YAY!!! BALLS FTW!
(we had to go through a SHORT bush only he could fit through, obviously)
then i picked it up and threw it. we played fetch. my pet dog loved it
then i had to say bye to my pet.

just letting everyone else know im still around.
as in here
in this gondamned screwed up world
with y'all
also...i would have changed my blog song but then some people just cant get enough of it...

yay post tiem...
lol
matthew's stuff on display, where he cant reach them...lol
that was on thursday afternoon









































































































this...well this is just a BIG mistake that the workers made...so...is it Mei Chin or Mei Ling

pictures an' ting

i used to be good in art. well, i took lessons wen i was 4,5, and 6. i don't know if i still have that "talent". well now i guess i do know...

also my father somehow managed to overheat his stupid kettle. it blew up in the morning, waking me and my mom up. apparently my dad slept thru the whole thing like a baby. and i HATE the kettle cos it makes this annoying high pitch noise even bin or i cant do. and its so high ptiched my dad CANT hear it. i guess thats why it blew up, the kettle...

this one is just here to spite andrew! ROFL, i got a gold on the mission you're stuck on HAHAHA...

bowling! i was in my PRIMARY school team so i guess that explains my score...i got 3rd overall all ppl in my coy btw. AND piratehwk is kevin. thats a sec 1 for ya
and HAHAHA (sacarstic mockery) at you gerald you almost beat me! rememeber why you got that dolphin keychain and not the cute bear lol

***READ PREVIOUS POST!***
...And remember children, watch the video for the two songs!
Song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKx1aenJK08
Rap: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3D2eh4xehc4
(and also the videos linked in the previous post)

i have no idea what got me to watch this Cao Ni Ma crap but it really entertained me!
maybe it was that newspaper article i read last night...
lol. i went on to find this equally entertaining video...
Ep. 1
Ep. 2
Ep. 3
and these 2 more SADISTIC videos...
The Cloak
Llamas With Hats
actually just check out its website

*no one paid me to do this*

wow everyone's falling sick (in the mind!!! XD XD)
kliek, i dont even know wtf happened to me last wednesday.
my head was damn payne after recess, maybe is guilty conscience for smuggling that chicken steak? lol
anyway, it was only payne at first throughout the whole literature period.
then it got worse
i just tried to stand up and i was suddenly damn giddy
it was difficult enuff walking to the com lab for digi. art.
then i got lucky. TEST. i mean the giddyness is bad enuff but wth a TEST!? i pharking test!?
eventually it took over. i HAD to get to the sick bay. i felt like vomiting
but by the time we were released from the com lab it was too late. i thought i could get there myself, i mean, from the com lab to the lifts cant be that hard right?
but i was rong, cos i ended up in the staff toilet for the next...2?...3? hours
oh and yeah its comforable in there, it dosent smell bad in there and the toilet is actually usable! (as in not dirty)

Wow, many things happenin', other than my OFFICIAL promotion from private to LCT >:-(

MATTHEW <3 MARIAN 0M6W7F88QH4X0R2!!!
(poor marian)
(also, i was the 1st to know, and the one who, uh, spread the GOOD word)

LIEK, NDP 09 SNEAK PREVIEW!
I HAS IT!
ok first of all, the fireworks have been replaced by LIVE firing of ROCKETS that EXPLODE!
then, the 5[?] planes that usually fly in that [flower?] shape will now fly in random directions and will release the multicolored gas, and somehow draw a HUGE picture in the sky
and things are the other way round. the performers will be at the podium and the spectators will sit anywhere/anyhow they want on the floating platform. NO safety precaution has been taken to ensure the platform doesn't sink or that people don't fall off and get eaten by...
LIVE SHARKS
...will be released around the floating platform to represent...uh...Singapore's never say DIE attitude?
DISCLAIMER(highlight it to read):
The contents of this post purely fictional. It describes the author's wild imagination and naivety and is not intended to personally attack anyone, dead or alive. No one was harmed in the thinking and typing of this post.

MY BIRTHDAY ENDS IN A MINUTE :D
ok there pictures and shit, so go see. if its too small, well, get a microscope. or click on the picture to enlage it.
hope you like the limited edition orange QSS shorts,
and the NOT racist joke. its just mocking Michael Jackson
also, the fail comic made in paint. its funny how the drawing fails and the joke ALSO fails

yes, so the stain on my pants has been washed, by me. it isnt really coming off tho, the color is even appearing in the front now!

*geeky_statement begin*
three days back, saturday at 11+pm i FINALLY completed guitar hero II
*geeky_statement end*

hope you'll ignore that XP

perhaps you've heard Internet Explorer 8 is out...heres what i think:

Internet Explorer 8 : Now downloads Mozilla Firefox 3, Opera and Safari faster than ever!
Get It NOW! <-that's the actual site to download it. DON'T. INTERNET EXPLORER SUCKS.

as you MAY have noticed, i ripped the links off the class blog.
im just LAZY, okay?
but not that lazy, i got relink ben, added tommy also and the 2 class blogs
im currently using mozilla firefox, looks like my music player dosent work on firefox
but just need a plugin, downloaded it, if you use firefox, you should too
is it just me or is miss yi da you unreasonable...punish those who own up abt toking, then those who nvr own up just happy-go-lucky get away wif it.
wtf lah
n also yong jia sacrifice himself for wad? lol...i will nvr understand.
wish me luck with the 13 pages, and tution homework. (and distinction in o lvl, i haven do yet lol)
(PUT HERE TO MAKE POST LONG)THIS JUST IN -> NEWS
i copied it off yahoo. this is the link

Chris Brown’s Alleged Assault Charges Could Cost Him His Endorsement Deals

Posted Mon Feb 9, 2009 12:58pm PST by Billy Johnson, Jr. in Hip-Hop Media Training

No. Not Chris Brown.

He's been the squeaky clean pop R&B poster boy since he hit the scene in 2005 with his #1 debut single "Run It."

He is not Michael Jackson, but he surely lit a fire under Usher's behind.

He has not publicly feuded with another artist.

He's been dating his female counterpart Rihanna.

He even had a Doublemint commercial.

He is 19-years-old.

There are a half a dozen upcoming teen male pop R&B singers signed to major labels who wish they could achieve his success.

But if the allegations are true that Brown assaulted a woman, his career will be in jeopardy.

According to the reports from the most reputable news sources, Brown turned himself in to authorities Sunday evening in connection with a charge of making a criminal threat. After being interviewed by police, he was released on a $50,000 bond.

Brown is being accused of assaulting a woman Sunday early morning and fleeing the scene, leaving her in a car in the Hancock Park section of Los Angeles. As a result of the issue, Brown canceled his performance at Sunday's 51^st Grammy Awards where he was nominated for two trophies, best pop collaboration for his song "No Air" with Jordin Sparks and best male R&B performance for his ballad "Take You Down."

It is unclear whether or not his girlfriend pop star Rihanna was the victim, however, insiders are speculating that it was the "Umbrella" singer who made the 911 call to police, complaining of being attacked.

Rihanna also withdrew from her scheduled performance from the Grammys.

The couple was last seen together Saturday night when they attended the annual pre-Grammy party hosted by music veteran Clive Davis. Reports indicate that they were happy.

On Sunday a spokesperson for Rihanna told People magazine that the singer was well, but did not confirm whether she was involved in the altercation.

I hate to speculate on matters like this until all of the facts have been revealed. But I do want to consider what the ramifications might be for Chris Brown if he is found guilty of hitting a woman.

Aside from potentially serving jail time, Chris could face a backlash from his fans and the companies that endorse him.

Wrigley said Monday that it will be suspending its Chris Brown ad campaign for Doublement gum. In a statement the company said it would delay any advertising or related marketing until the situation is resolved, AP reported. Wrigley added that Brown should be "afforded the same due process as any citizen."

Advertisers and sponsors are quick to disassociate themselves from artists with controversial histories. Ludacris lost an endorsement deal with Pepsi in 2002 when The O'Reilly Factor host Bill O'Reilly attacked the soft drink giant for supporting an artist whom O'Reilly described to have socially irresponsible lyrics. And last year, Verizon pulled the plug on its sponsorship of Gwen Stefani's tour after opening act Akon was seen on a web clip dirty dancing with an underage girl at one of his club dates.

Just last week, we saw the consequences Olympic gold medalist Michael Phelps faced when photos surfaced of the 23-year-old swimmer smoking marijuana via a bong pipe.

This could potentially affect Chris' invitation to other award shows and might even prompt fans to not support his upcoming concerts.

Respected hip-hop historian and journalist Dave "Davey D" Cook said that Brown losing endorsement deals is hardly the key issue. He wants to know how the community will be affected by having role models in Brown and Rihanna entangled in a widely publicized domestic matter. "The music industry, they'll circle the wagons and protect him," Cook said via email. "They'll spin the story and even go out after the victim which is happening now with Rihanna, who is catching heat from people accusing her of snitching."

Cook adds that he would like to see both Brown and Rihanna get help, but he believes that the music business will first put emphasis on keeping Brown's career afloat. "Chris Brown is a hot commodity making money in a crumbling industry that celebrates abusive culture, i.e. pimping," Cook said. "He'll be protected and held up to high esteem just like Ike Turner, Dr. Dre and Big Pun and numerous other artists and entertainers accused of domestic violence."

Many of Chris and Rihanna's fans are already forming opinions about the allegations.

After the news reports were released, fans expressed their opinions on social networking sites.

I've read many status updates on Facebook that conveyed anger towards Chris Brown.

On Rihanna's MySpace page, some users left her encouraging words, telling her that they are praying for her, that she will be okay, and to do what's best.

Ironically, few harshly condemn Brown. Some even take his side, citing rumors that Rihanna may have provoked a fight between the couple.

The comments on Brown's MySpace page clearly support the artist. One reminded him that he is innocent until proven guilty, while another told him not to worry because everyone makes mistakes.

We will see how the reaction develops as more of the story comes to light.

Brown is scheduled to go to court on March 5.

i am so busy...tuition and other shit is killing me
at least there was a literal free period today.
lol, gerald "fights" arumugam? thats more like bullying. and matthew EXTRA there provoking both of them to fight each other. dumb.
anyway, gereald's spunky ONCE-IN-A-LIFETIME look is here:
this was from the toilet
These were from d n t

my personal favourite:this was when he shouted woot with that funny accent lol

i wants another guitar (preferably eletric, more frets) lol
tired of having to keep changing the tuning when im trying out songs

maths remedial-ist here
MISS quek lit. cher lol, i tink can remember now...but 4got totally abt the lesson today ehhehehe...
maybe i should give up on my computer...go back to my laptop (boo vista! yay xp!)
upgrade it, maybe RAM and memory-wise
OR
GO GREEN! (lol)
go gym instead...i never rly used that gym downstairs my hse b4
can be less fat (do i look fat? i think so)
can MAYBE get 8 packs (haha im dreaming)
can loose the flabby arms/legs (heh...)
so i guess i'll go after this
shld i sell headphones that i still use to shorty? (for a whopping $60)
perhaps i should just give up...

Finally complete...?

well the music is changed...im trying to memorize that 1st song...abt 50% done? (on guitar) idk, more or less...and the second one im trying to get that part that goes "pepperonies and green peppers mushrooms olives chives" the whole song is just wacky and i kinda like that lol
PIZZA PIZZA PIE every minnute every second PIE PIE PIE PIE PIE!
well i guess thats about it, the blog is complete...so it can start dying again

lol, this is REALLY under construction...i totally forgot abt a tagboard...

You'll never play Cooking Mama again...

...nor will you eat turkey again.
Click here* to play the game, you sadists.
NEW!(and shiny!) scroll all the way down to play it
If you decided not to click that, theres somthing for everone!
Click here** to watch the video.



*WARNING:CONTAINS BLOOD. LOTS. OF. BLOOD.
**WARNING:MAY REQUIRE YOU TO CLOSE INTERNET EXPLORER WITH TASK MANAGER (Ctrl-Alt-Del)
Of course, you can hold down the enter button of about a minute
lol-laughoutloooooooouuuuuuuuuddddddd
rofl-roooooling on 73h floooooooooor laughiiiiiiiiiiiiing!!!
ha ha ha
EDIT: I hid the warning, so you have to highlight it to read lol.

yet another post....+*APOLOGY OF EPIC PROPORTIONS*

I was sick since last thursday, 8th jan 09 (i was absent remember)
it was not so bad at first, just a mild soar troat (as i prefer to spell it)
it got worst when i started coughing 2 days later
it started to get even MORE bad when i had trouble swallowing (tuesday)
and then my nose started acting up, blocked etc.
and then i got a fever yesterday afternoon (around 4+)
so i went to the doc. that night, and got an MC for today.
so i did not pon sch, i am REALLY SICK

NAO...FOR TEH *APOLOGY OF EPIC PROPORTIONS*

Sorry to all my friends/classmates that i ever introduced matthew to Xfire. He's really annoying at times, or rather most of the time otherwise always. He boasts about all his clans, etc, and and always asks ppl to join xfire
(it really annoys you sometimes right?)

Sorry to all my friends/classmates/Xfire buddies that i ever introduced matthew to Halo Custom Edition. He thinks he's so good, calling pros nubs, etc.

Sorry to chinese cher (lol) i keep not givin h/w (that makes me feel better)

lol new blog haha is called "starting afresh"
and quite literally its all white
lol i hope this blog dosent die out soon either...